This year I made a commitment to read the entire Bible. I am so excited each day as I read this beautiful love letter written by the Creator of all things. I am in awe of this living and active book. I am in awe of MY Father, the One who loves me so dearly…
Today I was reading in Matthew. In chapter nine, the scene is set up like this: Jesus is having dinner at Matthew’s house and people are coming to eat with Jesus and his disciples. But not just people, sinners. The Pharisees scoff, asking “Why is your teacher eating with these tax collectors and sinners??” Jesus hears this and as I read Jesus’ response I can just picture him looking up at them, his face stern and serious, yet loving. Jesus says to them “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”
I have been constantly reminded lately that I am part of God’s purposeful plan. Although I am far from His standards He can use me, even in my sin. He can even love me in my sin.
If I’m being honest, I have not always known that God’s love is unconditional. For so long I lived in fear. I seriously thought that I would never “make it” to heaven because I am not good enough. I would lie awake at night trying to figure out what I could do to somehow make God love me. The truth is, I will never be good enough. Truth is I cannot “make it” to heaven by myself.
Jesus is my good enough. Plain and simple…
And He does love me even though I do not deserve it.
As I dig into His Word each morning I am just blown away by how truly amazing my Father is. I am learning so much and God’s heart is being revealed to me in tangible ways little by little. In verse thirteen, Jesus challenges the Pharisees to “go and learn” what He is trying to tell them, and I know that is what He is trying to tell me today. Not just to read the pages but to use His Word to learn more about His heart.
So what’s my point??
My point is that I am absolutely STOKED about God’s Word and how I am learning to run after Him with reckless abandon, to fully seek His heart so that my heart may be more like His. To fully trust even though I can’t see the final result. This is hard for me; I am a control freak. So I am thankful that my Father accepts me and loves me as I am: a work in progress. He lovingly pulls me closer to Him and pursues me. He came for me because I am a sinner and loves me despite that.
Thank you Father for Your divinely inspired Word and that You alone are the healer of broken people; that You have called me, even in my imperfection… Thank you for Your infinite love.